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"Under The Watchful Eyes", oil on canvas, 78 x 120 inches - 2009
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Art is like a Journal
text by; Clarissa Chikiamko ![]() |
"Charity". oil on canvas, 72" x 48" - 2009
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Now, Garcia, the second of the five children, is amidst and in between all of this.
While seemingly aloof in manner should one meet him in person, Garcias composed exterior veil a tempest beneath. The furor and confusion that Garcia rightly feels for all these occurrences is directly seen and felt in these exhibitions works. The works were each created quickly and unplanned in a torrential flood of feeling in the need to suddenly discharge these hot flashes of intense emotion and moments of great duress. Grief, anger, despair, sympathy and bewilderment are bared in Garcias childlike brash slashing strokes and in the impetuous scribbled phrases found all over his paintings. His selection of damp browns, purples and greens further insinuate the artists brooding and foreboding mood.
Focusing on Garcia's mother are the works Charity, Sorrow, My Mother and She's Always There... They , in some sense, pay tribute to her vigor, her steadfastness and indeed her anguish as well, as Garcia perceives it. Depicting his brother and sister-in-law, Kuya Rhayan ate Ate Raquel centers on Garcias brothers distressed reaction to his sisters pregnancy news which followed only a day after what had been his joyous wedding. The events of Rochelle and Raquel, the objects of Garcia's mothers charity, shadow and dominate most of the men obviously referred to in Raquel in the Shadow of an Imbecile; the other alluded to in The Brainless Murderer. The men loom in the corner of Under the Watchful Eyes while Garcias self-portrait sits on the opposite side holding a double-edged sword, a biblical reference to the word of God. The importance of faith in these events that have cast such a feeling of vulnerability to Garcia, understandably feeling prey to his emotions, is echoed in his Prayer Request of a Weak Man.
The exhibitions title Under the Watchful Eyes, taken from the title of the largest work in the exhibition, originally referred to a divine being overlooking these events and, simultaneously, the judgmental perceptions of others to what had happened. Yet, the title takes new meaning in the recent death of Garcia's father, who passed away shortly after the works for the show were complicated. It perhaps movingly bookends a conclusion in this particular chapter of troubling events in Garcia's life.
Undeniably, the weight of such severe family circumstances Garcia finds himself in weights heavily on the works. Who would want to own something filled with so much personal tragedy? Would it be so sadistic to purchase and display such a memento of events that are so obviously deeply painful to the artist?
Yet, if art is like a journal as Garcia says, there is something very precious then about owning what amounts to a page from the artists diary and one so specially invested in by the artist. It is rare to find works these days with such a fervent personal connection to actual events in the artists life. The impulsive painting process has certainly been a therapeutic one for Garcia, the transference of emotions done through the very physical sensation of daubing here, there, anywhere and everywhere. There is an evident amount of gratification in expelling the hurt, the demons, the confusion and the sadness.
Yet, there are still some few last stages of this progression of healing being completed. The works have entered the realm of the commercial world. They are now exhibited in a gallery ready to be sold off and shipped to its new proprietors, who will own not only a part of the artists experience but, with such inundation of the artists inner self, also in a sense of part of his soul.
As Garcia lets go of these works and they go of these works and they go into the homes of the appreciative and enlightened, perhaps he may find the cathartic release and the prayed-for strength that he has greatly longed for and that he so much deserves.